I Don't Want to See Imam Mahdi (ajtfs)!

The late Sayyid Hashim Haddad (ra) told me: "If you want to see the Imam of Time (atfs), I will give you an instruction. After ten days, you will see the Imam and talk to him, and the instruction is this."

He gave me the instructions, but he said: "If you want to see the Imam in Baatin and you want to reach that truth and Wilayat, then you should not seek to see the Imam in Zaahir, but if you want, the instruction is this."

And I didn't follow that instruction!

Why?

Because seeing the Imam apparently is what my Nafs desires for. It wants to brag, 'I saw Imam,' so it likes to pay a visit to Imam.

What if I see Hazrat (ajtfs) and he says: "Why did you want to see me? Now that you saw me, do you feel at peace? Did you obey me? Did you strive to please me?"

Allama Sayyid Muhammad Husayn Husayni Tihrani (ra)